When Sue and I had been together for about 6 months, she asked if I would teach her to be my boy. I can't tell you how that made me feel inside. The joy I felt at those words melted me completely. If I had not been totally in love with her by then, that was unmistakably the point where I fell utterly beyond salvation in love with her.
The truth is, I was already hopelessly in love with her. She knows what made me fall in love with her. I hadn't even met her yet when I fell in love with her.
At any rate, I started with some very basics with her. She did well for a while and then somewhere along the way I think she got bored. Actually, I think she realized that she liked being a bottom and not a boy. This meant she just wanted someone to beat her when she felt like it. Like everything else, I decided that since I was in love with her and she was my partner that I had little choice in her decision (although I did protest a bit).
I didn't stop loving her, it just caused me to feel a certain sense of loss, a sadness if you will. I got over it though, I have managed to get over lots of things with Sue. There has always been a real letting go of things I thought were important when it came to Sue. She's a great teacher for me. Obviously I need what she teaches me or I still wouldn't be here getting my lessons in on a daily basis. In May I will have known Sue 7 years. In August, we will have lived together for that amount of time as lovers. Amazing. Sometimes I feel such love for her it is hard to contain it. But somehow I do. Somehow I manage to not say how much I love her to her. Sue doesn't do emotions or displays of affection well. So I respect that and keep it to myself.
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