New and improved! I see this goal in sight now. Radical change. That is the goal. Radical, cathartic change of my being or my perception of my beingness. Cathartic personal change for the good of all, within myself, starting here and now, the ultimate goal.

It's starts on the inside and radiates outward. First in the form of thought. I envision the end goal and the cathartic change is set in motion with that visualization. Soon, it's coming, soon... my heart, spirit, body and mind are being prepared for this change, I feel it, feel the subtle shifts in my perception, in the way my spirit feels like chains and fetters are being removed. Self imposed limitations and prisons come a crumblin down around me now.

Much of what I have been spending my time doing within my self of late has been all about coming into my authentic self. For so long now, in fact for almost the whole of my life, except for minor moments, I have allowed my authentic self to be squelched. I have spent a lifetime crushing the real me. For whatever reasons, none of which are valid anyway. Excuses more than anything. Diversions from the real path always.

I just eliminated a diversion from my life recently. It's name was Alyssa Buffer. Don't ever blame her or anyone or thing that has ever come along in my life that has diverted me, because, well, I am the one who called the diversion in to myself. Also, please don't think of everything that comes into my life (or yours) as a pure diversion. Things (people, relationships, whatever) come along to teach you lessons. In the end, it's all good. I would not be where I am at this exact second had the exact things that have occurred in my life lately occurred. They were the catapult, the spring board so to speak. I thank the universe for that opportunity to bring change in my life.

(Just as an aside here, the lesson of Alyssa Buffer is an interesting one in that I am not just healing, I am growing by leaps and bounds with the changes that have occurred of late in that relationship. I am learning much about me and how I really do work and who I really am. It has been an enormous growth booster in me, and in a very good, positive and healing way. Although I miss her tremendously, I am not wishing her back here with me right now. I am not lamenting her being gone. In fact, I feel absolutely the opposite. It feels good that she is gone now and off having to deal with her own growth and cathartic changes in her life without me.

She needs this time for her own healing to occur. Which is why I am sending her healing love and light right now. She will never change or grow if things in her life are not set in motion for that change and growth. She is busy trying to keep diversions in her life right now to keep from having to face the ramifications of major change and growth, but she will get there. Her diversions are also part fo her growth and lessons right now. Too many people are sending out that love and light to her right now. Too much unconditional love out there attempting to give her the tools for change and growth.

She asked me once where I had been all her life. I told her she wasn't ready for me before this time. I told her she had called for me now and I came. Now it was her choice to learn the lessons that having me as a mentor and teacher would bring to her. She may have only seen me as a lover and friend, but I was and am so much more to her. She will learn the lessons the universe had intended for her when she called for a great teacher and lesson to come to her. Whether she knows it consciously or not. She has brought into her life that which will free her from the chains her own self imposed prison has created in her. Healing Love and Light Alyssa, you will heal and be whole. You have called it in to you and so it has come.  Your teacher has set you free to evaluate all you have learned in this last year. Go for it with all your heart my beloved and dear one. Fly and be free my beloved boi.

And now, this whole relationship and where it is right now all feels good in a very positive spiritual growth oriented kind of way. Had this relationship not occurred in my life, I would not be where I am right now, on the verge of something that feels like it will be life altering in the very best sense of that phrase.)

The wind I feel coming is going to change me forever. I know it, I can feel it inside. I feel different already. I have visualized what it is that I want, and I am going for that brass ring of self actualization. I hate the English language, it's so limiting in so many ways. Change is a shitty word, because what I am talking aboutis so much more than the value we place on the word "change". Self actualization is also a phrase that in and of it's self is limiting too. But saying I am going to become myself, my real self, also doesn't sound right either. I already am my real self, it's just that I am becoming more my real self. Which also tells you nothing either.

What is happening is, I am shedding lies I have told myself are real about me. The removal of the untruths about myself, allow the real self to break through the walls the lies and/or untruths have created. It's like the last vestiges of the person I created to protect vulnerable me inside is in the last stages of death. Vulnerable me is not really vulnerable. My ego is vulnerable. Which is why egos are bad things to own. They keep you from reaching your authentic self. Your mind creates ego to protect vulnerable you. But vulnerable you, real you is stronger than ego can ever be.

Vulnerable you is that which is made up of pure unconditional love. To be pure unconditional love, you have to let all ego go and be love. To be love, one must be completely open. To be completely open, one must know their real self so fully that nothing can cause it injury. Utter knowledge of self and no ego equals pure unconditional love.  It's that simple and that complicated. What is happening with me is that what makes it so complicated is being removed, liquidated, whatever you want to call it in my mind and spirit. I am letting go that which seems so difficult to overcome. The belief systems that cause me to remain stagnant or in an ego centered place mentally are being removed, washed clean, eradicated, whatever.

And I feel so very good about it all. It feels empowering in a way I cannot describe. For the good of all. Don't you love watching someone process and grow?

More on this later. You should have figured this wasn't the last you would hear on this subject matter. It seems to be the major theme of late in here. I have to get off to work now to create the resources I need to empower me further.

Don't lable it, just do it!

Peace to you all....

 

This is a letter I wrote to Gina's friend Edgie. Edgie actually came here a few years back to visit with Gina while she was here visiting me. To put it lightly, Edgie is very different. And honestly not in the way I like my friends to be different. She is the kind of personality that I not only cannot figure out, she is the kind of being that kind of rubs me in the weirdest way in the most wrong way.

Nevertheless, Gina told her a short time ago that she had spent two weeks in the home of a shaman. She was surprised and wanted to know who that shaman was. When she told her it was me and my home, she was shocked. She had no idea I was spiritual or whatever name value she places on people she thinks know more than her about shit like that.

I told Gina that being called a shaman or for that matter actually being a shaman is something I like to keep a very low profile on. Which is why Edgie had no idea I am what I am (I am not naming myself anything if you haven't figured that out yet). I am not big on sharing my "trade" secrets to just anyone. Too much information in the wrong hands is not a good thing.

At any rate, I answered Edgie's letter to me last night and today. I sent it to Sue because Sue wants to learn what I know now after 9 years of living with someone with this kind of knowledge. The letter is a kind of Readers Digest Condensed version, or more like Cliff Notes on how energy works. After reading what I wrote to Edgie, I thought that this was one of the best dissertations (a short version anyway) of any energy teaching I had ever read. I was shocked that it came out of me.

Why I am shocked is, because, although I may know and understand all this shit rather well, it's not something I sit around thinking about the mechanics of very often. It's kind of like I never sit around thinking about how to drive a car, I just do it. I already know how to drive a car. Why would I have to think about the mechanics of it anymore?

But Edgie has a little problem right now and for Gina's sake, I gave her as much information on how to drive a car that I could under the given circumstance. I want to save it because I like most of how I put this shit to her in her lesson. I figured I could use it again someday when attempting to explain how this shit works to others. I'll just send them here and let them read what I wrote.

So here is Edgie's car driving lesson:

In a message dated 1/20/2007 9:05:14 AM Central Standard Time, Twospiritedgie writes:

Ive been told that while it is *do no harm to others, nor anything , etc,* that there is now a loop hole, that if someone attempts to do great harm to you, you can in fact do harm to others...ah Im sorry this is not a loop hole, its just wrong in my books.

It is a loop hole so to speak... and it's not new, it always has been there, since the beginning of time..... when you have purposely done harm to others, it creates an opening for them to return all you have done to them. Honestly the best way to use this loop hole is to put walls of protection up around you. Once those are in place, anything anyone sends at you to hit at you will be repelled off of you and go directly back to them anyway. It's out of your hands at this point. Spiritual principle takes over from this point forward. If you are protected, they are going to get all they are attempting to do to you right back, whether you want that to happen or not.  Which is why a person had best be very careful what they wish on another person, because if they have protection, then what the attacker sent out is going to come right back on their head.

 

Now, attacking, attempting to do purposeful harm to another for whatever reason (even if they did harm you) is wrong. Even if you have an enemy who you hate with all your being and they hate you just as much, unless they do something to harm you, you can do nothing more than be prepared to protect yourself in case they decide they are pissed enough at you to attack you. When and if they attack, you can do as I said above and repel it, keeping up your walls of protection to keep their attack from hitting you. It also helps if you take the time to cut any bonds you may have with that person too. And trust me, feeling hate for someone will create just as strong a bond as if you weremarried to them for 40 years.

 

There are some instances where you would prefer to send that energy off in to the universe rather than letting it follow the natural path back to the source it came from. To me that is your call. It's a matter of personal preference. I am a warrior, I want those who attack me to never want to attack me again. I am really big on letting the universe do it's karmic thing.

 

"Sir Pn, is it common practice to send an energy transfer to another person via an object, or is this showing off?"

 

I don't know if it is showing off, I suppose it's whatever the intention of the sender is.  I am sure there are plenty of people out there who would use their knowledge to show off. But then someone who would behave in this way by showing off their power probably is a very young soul and needs some serious lessons in their personal spiritual growth. And in that case, they probably don't have that much power if that is the state of their evolution.

 

But yes, objects are quite commonly used to transfer energy and intentions. Even in the Christian religion, they will have a priest or pastor anoint a handkerchief with olive oil and have it sent to someone who is sick to aid in their healing. So it is a very old and common practice if you are dealing with people from a long distance aspect (a long distance can be someone near by, but you are unable to actually be there present with them while doing a healing).  You can also take an object (such as a gem stone) and charge it with whatever your intention is so that the intention is amplified by the gem stone's own energy. You can do the same thing with candles when doing candle magick. I do candle intentions that I charge with whatever power I feel is needed to achieve my intended objective. Like right now I have a candle burning for a healing for friend who fucked me over.  I called upon whatever powers out there that have the ability and desire to heal a broken spirit like hers to come and charge my candle and send out that healing to her. I do things like this every new andfull moon.  I also lit a candle to aid me with starting a new business that I need the seed money for... I expect to see that money with two weeks. I also empower gem stones and keep them with me in my pockets or in pouches that I keep in on my person in my pocket. Those are example of how charging an object works when trying to achieve an objective.

 

 

In a message dated 1/20/2007 7:05:04 PM Central Standard Time, PnDragon7 writes:

I also empower gem stones and keep them with me in my pockets or in pouches that I keep in on my person in my pocket. Those are examples of how charging an object works when trying to achieve an objective.

Ok, I really don't know how that letter got sent to you before I finished it but it did. I am going to assume that since Sue and I am in the middle of losing a pregnancy right at this exact second that I somehow got befuddled and sent it accidentally in my confusion. So I will now try to finish this up for you here and now.

 

Anyway, the point I was trying to make about charging objects is, yes you can do it quite easily (wedding rings are charged objects you put on your body during the wedding ceremony to bond the couple). Some objects hold charges better than others. Precious and semi precious gems and stones charge well. Gold, silver and some other metals charge well (which is why I am assuming those people were showing you charged rings). Wax and many animal products, herbs and natural plant products charge well. Humans charge really well, the difference between a charged human and an inanimate object is that humans can lose their charge quickly just by refusing and sending the charge out of them. When you touch or take into your possession something that has been charged, the object can in fact transfer it's charged energy to you. It depends on what the intention in the charged object was.

 

I am not sure how to help you understand this, mainly because I do not know what you understand or comprehend already. So I am going to explain from the bottom up how energy works and how it can be manipulated by others. I am not a good teacher, so bare with me and if there is something that I have said here that goes over your head or I missed a step and you become confused, ask Samia because as a healer, she understands energy work just as well or even better than I do. Gina also understands energy work too, so she can also be of some assistance. She also understands you better than I do, so she can help you understand probably far better than I can.

 

First, a charged object has no real "power" in and of its self. It just has energy and certain vibrational levels of it's own. All things are made up of energy. The very atoms, protons and neutrons of your being are energy with their own properties. Those properties hold everything together. The energy contained in atoms hold the known universe together. Everything contains it's own energy. When doing energy work, energy workers like to use things (such as semi precious stones and some metals) that have specific energies of their own to work with.  This is because they have their own specific energy (or vibrational) levels.  That energy can be used by someone who knows how to manipulate energy to do various energy work. An object cannot really harm you in and of its self, and whatever it might have been charged with can easily be removed or sent away or out of you and the object.  You literally can shake it off. I have yet to meet an energy worker (myself included) who does not do some form of literally (physically) shaking energy off of them when they are doing energy work on another person.

 

People who do not know what they are really doing when they do energy transference (or charging) like to think of all this as being some higher form of spirituality or some religious act. It, in fact, is basic physics, the kind you learned in high school remedial science class (well, the kind I learned in remedial science class anyway).  All energy vibrates. Depending on the density of something, that is part of what creates the difference in vibrations in something (whether it is animal, mineral, plant, air, light, water, whatever). All energy has it's own vibrational level. Your personal energy that comes out of you has it's own vibrational level.

 

An energy worker knows how to take energy and transform it for use in whatever way they wish to use it. This is where energy work gets sticky. There are people who are evolved enough to use energy only for the good of all (like me or Samia or Gina) and then there are those people who are not yet as evolved who will attempt to use energy to do their own selfish goals.  This is where you as an energy worker need to understand how to protect yourself and the things in your life that cannot protect themselves. But more on that later.

 

Your mind (your thoughts) are one huge energy producing machine (thoughts are energy, they have a mass and contain atoms like any other thing, like air or light). This is true of every human being who is capable of abstract thought construction. Because we can think in abstracts, we are able to create energy from those thoughts. Unlike animals who do not think in abstracts as we do. Animals have their own energy and vibrational levels, however because they cannot think in creative abstracts like humans, they cannot generate newly created forms of energy as we can. In other words, we humans can "imagine" or make something up in our heads and literally create the energy to manifest that thing we have created in our minds. This is simple physics. Period. There is nothing "spiritual" or "religious" about any of this.

 

This is why when you are dealing with persons who think they are wizards or witches, or good Christians or whatever, it can be very dangerous. Their thoughts can create things that are not always positive energy and direct it toward other people. It's the old proverbial "where thoughts go, energy flows" thing. Twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, all thinking human beings are generating energy thoughts, whether they know it or not. We are busy generating energy all day long while we are awake. So when you take someone who is immature in their development as a being, it becomes dangerous when they have just a little knowledge ofhow to manipulate energy (as in the case of Christians who pray for someone they think is evil to be destroyed or whatever, or a pagan or wiccan who wants to hurt an enemy or whatever). Without even knowing, they can generate energy that can harm other people, simply by thinking it in their mind. Emotions, which are created by your thoughts generate the most powerful energy because well, they are such energetic thoughts. Extreme emotion creates the most extreme forms of energy in a lesser evolved person. So if someone has extreme feelings of hate for you, they can send out some very powerful negative energy toward you. Whether they know they are doing it or not. I was almost killed in a car accident earlier this year because of someone feeling that kind of extreme hate for me.

 

Which brings me back to protection. I had let my guard down with this person because I figured she had given up her intense hatred toward me. I figured she had finally gotten it in her head that I was not the "threat" to her that she thought I was. I was wrong. Almost dead wrong. This was a lesser evolved being who's energy thoughts, whether conscious or not sought to do me harm. They did harm me and I wear the scars on my body now for those conscious or unconscious energy thoughts she generated toward me. She was btw, a Christian who knew some very basic energy principles to use through prayer (which is simply a way to make your mind believe it is sending energy toward a goal through invoking a deity to do your work for you... pagans and wiccans use this also, they just don't call it prayer)

 

This example is an extreme. Most people do not go this far to harm another with their energy. But it is an example of why protection is important when you know you have people out there feeling and thinking negative and possibly hurtful things about you.

 

Protection is just like any other form of energy creation. You think it, therefore it simply is. Using your imagination, you can create protection that even an ardent enemy cannot penetrate. You literally think that protection into creation and it will really be there to protect you when necessary. It's that simple, but also that effective. Rightnow, if you can just understand how energy works and how you can create it for your own personal usage, that will be enough for you to deal with the lesser evolved beings that have entered your life lately. I think Gina is going to get with you on how to effectively do this. Like I said, I am not a good teacher and Gina knows how to reach you and help you understand, whereas I do not.

 

There is much more to learning how to use energy to help assist you in your life, but right now I do not have the time nor energy to get into it. But I am going to give you one more bit of information here. The universe inner and outer, all we know and do not know, was created by energy. That energy is the source of everything. Religious people like to give it a name and call it God or whatever. Even religious people who know their religious scripture will be able to tell you that this energy said it has no name. It called its self "I am that I am".  What this energy, this creative mind really is, is Love. Pure unconditional Love. It's the greatest power that exists. This love, this being, this ultimate creative mind that is Love, created all things through love and because of love. With that knowledge in mind, everything you do in life, every energy you create, every thought you generate should be based on that Love. Unconditional, utter, universal creator Love.

 

The goal is to be connected to that Love and always seek to do everything you do in life out of a place of unconditional Love. Jesus is the best example of how Love has always been there for us. Jesus tried to show and teach us that Love when he was here on earth, but we humans tried to destroy it because we could not understand it and in that lack of understanding, we feared him and that love. We even tried to kill that love in killing him, but fortunately for us, you cannot kill that energy, because energy and especially the energy from the source of all Love never dies. Energy from the source of all energy cannot be destroyed, ever. But that was why Jesus ever came here to earth, to show us that Love and so that we could know that Love and live in that Love as he knew it. A very small amount of people have ever gotten that, most of us sadly follow blindly what we are taught. And what we are taught is fear based beliefs that have no basis in Love. The real trick is to get rid of your belief systems that have kept you from knowing that Love. Getting rid of belief systems allow Love to come into you and become the very essence of your very being (Christians have a name for that, they call if the Holy Spirit). Then you will walk always from a place of unconditional Love. That then gives you the ability to help others from a place of unconditional Love. You become a healer (and a healer can heal many things and in many different ways) who uses energy to help rather than destroy. Because Love can do nothing else. It simply loves and accepts unconditionally. That is the goal. Love unconditionally.

 

Ok any other questions you want to throw my way I am here for you.

 

Peace and healing to you my friend,

J

Today, Sue started spotting, passed clots and had cramping for several hours. She is beyond the point of believing there is still an unborn child within her. My heart wants to wrap its self around her now and tenderly calm the pain that grows inside her. I don't know how to be there for her, she has gone inside in her anguish and can let no one in right now. And I understand and so I do not push.

I do not know for certain that there is still a child growing within her womb. I cannot tell her emphatically that the baby is still there. I can only trust my guides and hope that I am not being led astray by their advice. They say the baby is still there. I am holding on to that until medical science tells me other wise.  I am holding on to the unborn infant and the dream of her coming to be with us all.

It is all I can do now. Hope, listen harder and without ego to my guides. Ask for assurance that this was not what Sue believes it to be.

I love Sue, as one loves your own being. She is my family through thick and thin. My heart is heavy for her now. Because I cannot reassure her. I cannot make this experience go away and only be a minor thing that happened early in the pregnancy. Just a big scare as we walk through the mine field of these first few months.  That is what I would like to be able to reassure her with.

I so want this child, for her, for all of us. This child that has been so longed for, so anticipated for so long now. Sue doesn't just want this child, her spirit needs it, like it needs the air to live. And I am helpless now to give it to her. And so I wait, as she does, as this whole family does. Wait for the answer, for the truth.

Universal God Love, let this child come to us, let it be born whole and healthy. Give us this promised daughter. My spirit cries out for this and so I ask utterly with all of my being, bless and grow this being within her womb. Bring her to us whole and healthy.  Bring her in to this family that already loves her, whole and healthy.

So mote it be.

I love you Sue, unconditionally, forever.

Personal Daily Horoscope of Friday, 12 January 2007 for J, born 21 May 1954
Heavy-hearted
Valid during many months: During this time you are able to achieve a most unusual balance between your material and your spiritual needs, and you see the relationship between them so that you can build your life upon both of them equally. This influence helps you bring your spiritual ideals into focus in the material world so that you can see precisely what role they play in your life. Consequently this is a time of sober reflection and deep understanding about your life on several planes. This is a time of serious thought. Your mood will not be especially light-hearted, but you will be in a position to make great breakthroughs in understanding. You will be able to deny yourself rewards that you have wanted in the past, because now you can see that if you wait a bit, your daily life will come closer to your ideals. You are in the right frame of mind for disciplined self-denial and sacrifice without being a martyr. In other words, you are realistic about what you are doing. Now you can work to further your ideals, such as working for religious or charitable organizations, spiritual groups or whatever. In general you will be attracted to groups of people who share your views, and you will be able to express your philosophy better in a group than by yourself. This influence has the effect of making your ego subservient to higher needs, so that if you believe strongly in what you are doing, you will be able to work hard even if given very little credit or positive reinforcement. With this influence there is the danger of taking your own actions too seriously. This can be a very covert form of egotism in the name of spiritual awareness and devotion, and no form of egotism, even if it goes by another name, is compatible with this influence.

 

It's a good thing I have spent the last 16 years trying for all I was worth to get rid of my ego. I saved this because it's how I have been feeling for several weeks now. In fact, it's how I have been feeling ever since Alyssa stopped hanging around me every day. It took being away from her to see how much I wanted to and have missed working on me and what I feel I need to do for myself in my life.

What it is, is time for me to take charge again of my own life and destiny. I have spent far too many years giving myself away to everyone and everything except myself and my own spiritual growth. At least for the last 14 or more years. Starting with giving all of my time and energy to Cheryl and her illnesses and neediness, then Spikey and hers, to Sue and Kaitlyn just trying to keep a roof over their heads and somehow above water financially, and finally to Alyssa who I gave everything to, physically, spiritually and emotionally.  I am drained beyond reason and I am just done with giving myself away and seldom asking the universe for anything to fill me up again or heal myself. I have spent time working on me to a point, but my energies were always directed toward being there for others. It has left me little energy to really delve deeply into my own personal growth and spiritual needs.

These people whom I have given so much of myself and my energy to are persons and situations with whom I chose to be involved. Each person and situation came into my life and individually taught me many lessons for my growth. So it's not like I have wasted these last 14 years. I have grown much and I thank eachindividual for their contribution to my growth. It however, is time for me to take back my power and direct it toward where I want to go now in my quest for growth as a spiritual being.

And I do know where I want to go. I am in the process of formulating how I am going to get there. It is far greater than where I want to be in my external world. That is important to me and is something that I will be directing much energy to in the next several months and years. But it is so much deeper than the surface of what you see when you look at me. The reality is, where I am going is further and deeper in, deeper and further, more layers penetrated. Further and further to a place that does not really exist, yet is very real. A place that is never found because there is no end to the deeper and further you can go. It's impossible to explain, but I know where this place is and how to get there, I have been there once before. It never ends this non-place, this endless inside your being place. This place that is the whole of the universe, that is part of and at the same time is the One.

The English language sucks. Unconditional is not nearly as defining as it should be to describe One. Mainly because, if you have not experienced Oneness, then you do not understand true unconditionality. It is beyond conventional human understanding. The truth is, we understood it at birth, but it was beaten out of us while having to experience humanness. There is no such thing as definition of One. Which is why it is impossible to describe it in human terms. It cannot be described, it must be experienced.  Experiential understanding, joined with human knowledge becomes a knowing to the human mind and spirit. There is no such thing as belief with experiential understanding. You believe nothing, you simply know, period.

I do not believe in who I am, I know. I do not believe I have great indefinable power with in me, I know. I do not believe I am part of and one with Unconditional Oneness, I know. I do not believe we and all that is known and unknown is part of and still the same as the whole of Oneness, I know. For I have experienced it fully and with complete comprehension, in my mind and in my spirit. Converting that comprehension into words that are understandable by the human mind for other humans to grasp is my beyond ability now. I have never found words in the English language to impart that knowingness. And so I have long since stopped trying.

What I do and have done for years is to simply impart that knowing through unconditional love. Because that is the purest manifestation of Oneness available to impart to others experiencing being human. For me, if that unconditional love reaches the spirits of those beings experiencing humanity at the moment and sparks for them a remembrance, lights a small flame of memory of what Oneness is like, then I have accomplished much. For it was a spark such as that that awakened my own spirit one day so many years ago. A spark that became an all consuming brilliant inferno as it raged through me, changing me forever in that instant as it enter the all of my being. My mind and spirit simply knew forever without doubt, for it had experienced Oneness unconditionally and utterly.

Oneness is Love. Love is Oneness. It's that simple and that complicated.  Everything is held together by that Love, by that Oneness. Even Everything is beyond the human mind to comprehend and yet it is so simple when you experience it.  Deeper, further in, more, further in.... the All, the Everything, the One.... Love, unconditional, all consuming, Universal, One Love.

That is where I am going. I'll at least bring you back a tee shirt or coffee mug upon my return <grin>.

Started on the drugs the Doctor gave me yesterday. They are just to take until the blood tests come back. I go in next Friday to get my real prescription. These meds are oral, the real ones will be injectables.

It's funny, my blood sugar is not much lower than it's been, but I feel almost 100% better than I have in 3 weeks.  The stuff I am on right now is Fortamet. The stuff I am going on starts with an A and makes you lose weight to boot.

Ok, I am off to Dojo Days. Wish me luck!