It's Thanksgiving Day today. Sue and K are still asleep. I however haven't been sleeping well of late. It's these damn missing hormones. Their lack tends to disturb your sleep. So I am up and they, the fam are sleeping soundly in their bed.

I haven't written in a long time. Not here, not anywhere. The doctor put me on antidepresents. He has no idea what an excellent call that was. I was pretty close to the end before they entered my blood stream.

So Alec, Kara and I were sitting around the other day saying what we were thankful for this Thanksgiving season. They were thankful for their health, their family's health and their families in general. I, on the other hand, was thankful for an unconditionally loving creator being that loves me beyond all human understanding. You can't look death in the face and survive it without knowing to the depths of your being that something much greater than yourself has it's hand on you and loves you beyond all understanding.

The family is up now. It will become impossible to write anymore with the noise and activity all around me. It's all good though. I wrote something, anything today. I took my Celexa just now, need to get those seratonin levels up so that I am not a serious drag around others. Unless a person suffers from the kind of debilitating depression as I do, they will not be able to comprehend my need to withdraw emotionally from others. They will just think I am some kind of anti-social asshole. I'm not, I am just depressed.

We are going over to Misty and Curtis's house for TG this afternoon. That's where we were the night of the accident. It was in fact the road to their house that we had the accident on. We go the other way now. Sue is afraid of that road now. Sue was not in the accident, but she did come up it as they were taking us into the ambulance to take us away to the hospital. She is still freaked about that road. So now we take the back road to miss the accident site. I don't mind, I don't particularly want to see the accident site anymore either.

I am not sure when I will write again. Eventually I am sure. Eventually.

Everyone have a happy turkey day.