If there's anything that you want
If there's anything I can do
Just call on me and I'll send it along
With love from me to you
I just took a really hot bath hoping it would squelch this increasing pain in my lower back. Now I am going to go meditate and hope that I can send some healing energy down there to fix whatever fucked up last night when I coughed.
The weather is supposed to suck big time tomorrow. This is the first winter that I can remember where I am dreading this coming. For some reason, right now, the cold is really effecting me. I have no internal energy to fight it right now. I am not depressed, just really tired and worn out. My age is really taking it's toll on my ability to do things I once took for grant it. I have to fight whatever it is that is sapping my energy reserves. I know a lot of it is stress, but I am so used to stress that I can't understand how it could be effecting me so differently now. I will continue to work on this issue. I must because it is the single worst thing going on for me right now. My physical body is betraying me with it's reactions to all this in my life right now. I who was once so proud and strong physically. I refuse to give it up! I am a strong enduring bull and I cannot be defeated so easily. I refuse!
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