I have been feeling the need to write since two weeks ago. As you can see, I haven't gotten around to it. It's not because I am so busy as much as it is because I am never alone much anymore. I find it inordinately difficult to write while being bombarded by other people attempting to have conversations with me.

I haven't been online much at all. In fact, I am seldom online other than to check email or quickly google something.

I continue to lose weight. I am only 40 pounds away from my goal weight. My goal weight is based on knowing that the last 20 pounds or so will only come off with surgery. I have so much skin that was created over the decades from gaining and losing huge sums of weight that it will never go away. I lack HGH in my old age and I do not have the money to purchase real HGH in order to get the elasticity to help that skin go back (at least a little bit anyway).  A prescription for HGH costs around $600 to $1200 a month depending on who manufactured it and where you buy it from. I have talked to my pharmacist and she doesn't even carry it in stock. It's too expensive for her to have it sitting in stock when the backwoods doctor's around here don't and won't prescribe it for anti-ageing therapy.

HGH, like all other hormones needed in a complete HRT regimen, is essential to maintain good health and prevent illnesses associated with ageing. Right now I am on a series of hormone replacements that are chemical, although the Byetta is a protein which is grown similar to HGH's production. Like HGH, it must be injected daily, in my case twice a day. I look like a pin cushion by the way.

When I am finished with this last batch of hormones, I will be cleaning my system of these hormones so that when I take the next series of lab tests I will be clean and my true hormone levels will show up in the lab tests. From there, my pharmacist can make me up a personalized compound of bio-identical hormones to replace that which I lack because of advancing age.

Just so that everyone knows, I am not trying to turn back time, I am trying to age in good health. I don't need to experience illnesses and diseases that are associated with ageing if I maintain proper hormone levels. I was so sick by the time I got my sorry old ass to the doctor back in January that I was near death. And why you might ask? Because my hormone levels were so far off balance that my body was literally killing it's self. It took 3 months to get the insulin levels semi normal.

That was the first step. That was when the chemical hormones were added. Chemical hormones are prescribed using an average to measure them by. They are not built to specifically meet your personal body's real needs. With chemical hormones, you are basically taking a pill once or twice a day. With bio-identicals, you are rubbing a cream once or twice a day (depending on your body's needs) and they are formulated to your exact need. Every few months, you have to take another lab test to make sure your levels are optimal. This is all not cheap, but then it's far cheaper than an extended stay in the hospital because of an age related illness.

My goal is to find HGH inexpensively. I can find doctors to prescribe it, that is easy enough (just not around here). It's finding a source that I can afford to buy it from.

I will get healthy, I am already half way there.

In other news, Johnny (Glen's son) is coming to live with us for the school year this year. He didn't spend the summer with us (except for a couple of weeks) because he was going to spend the school year here instead. He's coming next week to stay permanently. Sue has cleaned her room out (yes it's empty!) and we are splitting it in half and making a 3rd bedroom up stairs for Johnny. I'll keep you updated on all that as things progress.

I found out yesterday that the Housemouse has been trying to get other people to get a place to live with her so that she can move from the situation she finds herself in right now. Apparently she is extremely unhappy in her current situation. Amazing how I saw all this coming. I give her two more weeks. Unless she is unsuccessful at finding the money she needs to move out. I think at this point that she still thinks she can continue to use the person she has been using for the last couple of years. Honestly, I am not so sure she can continue to use him unless she goes to bed with him. That might work. Maybe. But I don't know, he is about as fed up with being used as I was with my leech back in December.

Anyway, it's just kind of interesting watching karma do it's thang with people. I am not so much enjoying it (because I know from personal experience how much karmic payback can and does hurt sometimes) as I am sitting here waiting to see how it all plays out in the end. Of course, there is no real end to anything. Everything just goes on and on and people grow and evolve as karma and the universe bring them lessons. You can try all you might to teach people about karma and how the universe works, however, until they experience things for themselves, they will not take your personal knowledge to heart.

Ok, I am off to the doctor for my final visit about the accident. I need this thing done and over with so that the lawsuit against the insurance company can be started.

Ciao.