Sue goes to court Monday. It's creeping up on her and making her stomach churn. I don't blame her. Sue has a Defense Fund jar at work. So far people have dropped over $100 in there. The lawyer is costing $1500. So that means that between what Sue's Dad sent and this money we only owe him $900.

It's ok, I am pretty much prepared to deal with all this from a spiritual stand point. Lots of positive energy and such going to the whole thing, and a wall of protection against those who are sending out (whether they know what they are doing or not) negative energy.

In other news, despite all the boneheaded stuff I have done in this last year to cause my self financial ill health, slowly, I am healing from the cancer that was slowly eating my world away. I am sure she doesn't see herself as a cancer so maybe for her sake it's better to call her a leech, sucking the life's blood out of it's host. Maybe she would understand that better.

Not having a leech there sucking me dry to the tune of $400 a week (come hell or high water) has made a world of difference. All those things that I had no money to fix last year I am slowly "fixing" this year. I have also found to be true what I knew to be true way back when, I don't need a full time employee, period. Bill knew that, which is why he didn't work full time for me. A really huge week for Bill was 30 hours and that was pushing it with a couple of huge jobs going on. Most weeks Bill was lucky to work 15 hours.  Even at that I didn't really need Bill all that much, often he was along for the company because I honestly could do it most of it without him.

About the only time I actually need someone is when I am in the middle of a huge project. I need someone to take locks off doors and then put them back on the doors.  It makes the job go way faster and the faster a job goes for me the greater the profit margin. I haven't had any of these jobs recently, but hopefully I will soon enough. I have two places that are in the middle of figuring out how to pay to get it done. It's not cheap you know.

At any rate, things are looking up. And I say this for a variety of reasons, one is because they really looking up are despite the outward appearence of things and two, because I am creating an aura of positive forward motion by saying "things are looking up". It's a little deeper than that, but saying that will suffice for the time being.

I am not going to get into the negative energy that was being generated daily in my life last year when I had certain on going influences attached to my life. I can say though that not having that negative energy around all the time has freed me to put energy into so much that was being neglected in my life. Like my actual physical health. Or, spending time with my own child. It's amazing how much more positive energy I have for things such as that anymore.

I almost feel free anymore. Burdens beginning to lift. Even this shit that is happening because of backstabbing fucks in Sue's life cannot divert me from moving forward. I will step right over these betraying fuck wads and dump what they did to Sue right back on their heads. Woe to you if you were any part of the betrayal of Sue. It's all been sent back to you. Sue and I are moving forward. You can deal with whatever you generated cause it's on your heads now. We've refused your bullshit <grin>.

Now I am going to go get ready for work and go make a few dollars today. Another day close to another bill paid. LOL, that is how I look at a work day anymore. Which bill did I pay today. What bill can I pay tomorrow. What broken thing around the house can I fix today? What more did I do today to fix the financial ills created by my boneheaded bullshit from last year? It works for now <grin>.

Ok I am off... Ciao!