I am continually amazed at how many "life"less people there on this planet. I am sorry I have to run in to them more than occassionally. I am sorry she is an asshole with no life honey. And I am sorry you had to go through the pain and anguish of having her lifeless life spewed on you the last few days. Now you know why no one can stand her and she has no real friends. And now you know why for the last 10 years I have warned you about fundie Christians.

In other news, I am still slowly recovering from being sucked dry financially for almost all of last year. The funny thing is, the person she called "Mooch" that she claimed was sucking me dry financially was and is the only person from her family that has ever given me anything of any real value, cash money included. I never once saw her throw a dime my way to keep the propane tank from being taken away. Or for that matter, I never saw her throw a dime of her own money my way period, except for when she got that huge and final child support check from Chuckie and she bought me lunch at Geraldi's in celebration. She also threw $50 bucks toward one of Sue's Christmas presents in November. It was the least thing she could do considering she had been fucking Sue's girlfriend behind her back for most of the winter before and that she was attempting to get back down Sue's girlfriend's pants again at the time.

If she thinks that helping me and Curtis to physically install the new electric hot water heater helped pay me back for the missing propane tank, well, I never would have had to get the electric one if the propane tank was still there. And the electric one cost me money I didn't have to spare anymore than I had money to spare to pay to keep the propane tank here and filled and pay her for 40 hours of work she never worked too. Nope, she never missed a pay check, whether she worked for it or not. That's the closest she will ever come to being on salary.

One day I will be over all these financial problems that I am working to fix now because of my boneheaded need/desire to have an emotionally and physically intimate relationship with another human being. In the meantime, I seeth inside with anger that someone would take that kind of advantage of someone as vulnerable as I was at the time she wrapped her talons around my heart and body. But like any other disease, I will slowly recover and get well. And I am slowly recovering from "her" and her blood sucking ways.

My new found "wealth" that I have from not having the real "mooch" in my life anymore pretty much goes to doctor visits and prescription drugs. I did manage to get my car fixed, but not my work van with the dead transmission. I have no real idea what that is going to entail. I know what's wrong with it, I just don't know what can be done or how much it will cost yet. I think I have the doctor almost paid down for the blood tests. That was $500 bucks. She has tried to give me as much in the way of "free" samples as she can. Unfortunately, my main prescription costs over $200 a month, and seldom does my doctor get free samples of Byetta. You are right, it doesn't have a generic available, so I pay for full price.

I had medical insurance last year that I had bought knowing I was probably going to have some serious medical stuff soon enough. But I had reason to actually use it last July after the accident and I found they paid like a total of $20 bucks for my medical expenses. So my investment of $126 for that first month of insurance netted me $20 worth of real coverage. There was like a thousand and one reasons in their note of explanation of what they covered as to why they weren't covering anything in the accident. None of it had to do with the auto insurance coverage on the accident. The auto insurance doesn't cover doctor visits that are a result of the accident, they won't be paying for any of that until after the suit is settled. So that comes out of my pocket. It should have been coming out of my insurance company's pocket, but it's not and it never will. They literally paid $20 to my doctor and that was that. I guess it was just luck that gave me a reason to use that insurance before I paid for several months of it just to find out they don't cover a damn thing. What did I expect for $126 bucks a month anyway?

So anyway, I have no medical coverage and I am having to pay for all my medical by my self. I was kind of figuring that my medical would be around $200 a month, prescriptions included. I was kind of budgeting for that. It's been a bit more than that, but I just keep plugging away and paying the doctor as much as I can each visit. The drugs come first because I have to have them no matter what. I am not sure what I am going todo when I run out of the expensive stuff in a week or so as I don't really have that extra $208 for it right now. The electric bill is due so that has got to be paid first. That's $400 bucks (sucks to have an electric hotwater heater and have to use space heaters because you can't use your propane furnace). Luckily this will be the last over $400 electric bill for a while. They will drop down to around $200 for a while. And hopefully by the time the cold sets in again, we will have propane and can use that heat to warm the house instead. Propane is going to cost $1000 to get a new tank installed and filled part way.

Also, business is picking up and I am working my ass off to get things back to some semblance of normalacy around here. I still need to get the riding mower fixed and the shower fixed really soon. The shower will probably come first as I can probably do that myself. My physical strength has declined dramatically in this last year so I am not sure if I can actually get the spout to come off myself. But if I can't, I will go grab Dave next door for a moment to losen it for me. I can probably get that whole shower issue fixed for under $30 bucks.

The lawn mower has to be towed to Berryville no matter what. I can't find anyone who can figure out how to get the steering column off it. If I could get it apart, I could probably fix it myself. I just can't get the darned thing apart. And no one else can figure it out either (I have had several very strong and able mechanic types try to get it apart, so I know it's not just me). The lock on the screw/bolt just won't let go and allow you to unscrew the damn thing to get to the part that is broken. And no one who has looked at in this last year can figure out why it won't let you unscrew it either. So I am going to just give up and pay the $100 to have the damn thing towed over to Berryville and have them fix it for me. The reason I have not had it fixed is because I have not had a spare $100 to have the SOB towed to Berryville. The repair will probably be minimal. Probably less than $100, it's the damn towing it there because I don't have a trailer or know anyone with a trailer that is the problem.

Now "she"' and I were going to buy a trailer last year from Sensie. I am not sure if that trailer is still around. We were gonna buy that trailer for two reasons. One was that I could get my lawn mower towed to Berryville and two was so that we had something to go pick up autobody parts with. I thank god that she still does not have a truck or a trailer to pick autobody parts with. And even if she had the trailer, she has no vehicle with a hitch to pull it anyway. Ha ha... this is payback in my eyes. There are some things she was unable to get out of me financially. Mainly that is because the money began to dry up near the end there. Life's a bitch and then you suck your money well dry and have to move on. Don't let the door hit you on the way out bitch.

I just remembered one last little thing I have to repair/buy that I was unable to repair/buy last year because I had no money to do it with. The microwave. I need a new fucking microwave. I had a new microwave but it died just after the warranty was up. Walmart might have taken it back had they had another one just like it to trade for, but of course they don't carry that brand anymore so I am stuck with a dead microwave and the need for a new one. They have what I want at Lowes, so I will go there in a few weeks to get a new microwave. This one Sue got at the Doggie Shop for $5 bucks is from like 1985. It's become nearly our only way to cook. Now that it has warmed up we have the grill outside, so we can grill chicken and such. I will sure be happy when we have a new propane tank and we can cook on the stove again. Cooking in a 1985 Litton Microwave is really not fun I assure you. Litton, are they still around?

Ok, I have to leave for work now. Today was rant day as I am upset about all the shit that has happened to Sue the last few days. Part of it is her fault (just like "she" is technically my fault), but part of it is the psycho Christian fuck who has gotten in her face and decided to fuck with her because Sue won't give her "control" of this thing she has wanted these last few years.

So the bitch made me remember all the shit I am faced with now because of my own poor choices in the recent past. Which made me bitch.... <grin>.

Ok, I am off to work now. Ciao everyone!