Last night I did a tarot reading about someone and the situation they have gotten themselves into in life. Normally when I do a reading about something or someone, I use my intuition/phychic ability and then ask my guides briefly if I am interpreting the reading or a particular card correctly.

The end result card from this reading was the Death card. Now the Death card doesn't necessarily mean literal, physical death. You look at the card in relation to the other cards around and and then go with your gut feeling. The Death card can mean death to your old ways, or death to a relationship, or death to a situation, whatever. It means dying out to the old to transform or rise like the Phoenix from the ashes. That's the spiritual translation of the Death card.

So after taking into account the other cards around it in relation to it, I began to delve deeper into the meaning of the end result card. It wasn't good. I know the situaion this person is stuck in well enough to know that all the other cards in relation to the end card were exactly as the situation is right now.  So I began to ask my guides if the Death card meant exactly what it's literal translation in the physical sense means. Every which way I asked the question, ie: does this card mean literal death for this person?, does this card mean death to a situation? etc, came out with the same answer. It meant literal death.  It meant literal death by their own hand.

After I had asked this rather lengthy series of questions of my guides, my spirit became extremely distrubed. My heart began to break for this person and their situation. This morning, my heart/spirit is just as distrubed as it was last night. Which is why I am writing this right now.  The reason I am upset about this so deeply is because I can't stop what is going to happen. Yes, I asked that question too. I even asked if this was a karmic thing for this person that they were going to accidentally take their own life. It's not, they are just going to accidentally take an overdose of prescription meds.

This is someone else's karmic lesson, not the person who may die. The person in question wants out of the situation they are in and can see no other way out. Subconsciously, suicide is becoming the only option to get out of the situation. All of this deeply disturbs me.

I am going to go see a friend of mine in the next few days if I can get to her between her schedule and mine. I am going to let her interpret my reading too. I need to know if I am reading this incorrectly, perhaps getting answers that were wrong or something. Unfortunately for me, my readings are always almost 100% accurate. Which is why I am so upset right now. In all honesty, I don't want my reading to be 100% accurate. I don't even want it to be 50% accurate.

I have been getting readings on this person and situation for months now telling me that they are going to die with in 6 months. So I have told people not to ride in any vehicles with that person if they can at all help it.  I was wrong about the vehicle thing. I just assume people that young will die in a car accident. But then I never did a reading like the one I did last night on this person before. I didn't realize that the situation had become so desparate for them.

I am really sick at heart right now. I'll go talk with my friend this week, see what she says, see what she reads out of this reading. Hopefully I am dead wrong, no pun intended. Hopefully this person will find another way out the situation they feel trapped in rather than accidental suicide.