It would be funny if you knew me to know that I am at a loss for words. It's more like I am at a loss for energy to even think of words. My heart hurts right now. It's heavy, but because I am energyless, there is only so much ache going on here. Last night I was laying in bed crying before I fell asleep. A million reasons "why" where running through my head. Why? Why now? Couldn't you have waited until I had my head back in a better place?
I have had lots of people hurt me in my lifetime. I know I have hurt a lot of people too. I have to say that I only purposely hurt maybe 2 people in my adult life. Everyone else it has been pure stupidity on my part. Even when breaking up with people I have tried to be as kind and gentle as possible. Just because you no longer love someone or want to be in relationship with them anymore does not mean you still don't care about their feelings or self worth. Even in all your kindness, you still hurt them.
I hurt right now.
But that is neither here nor there.
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