I have been extremely busy lately. Too much work, too much of everything.

I am kind of sick right now, but I think I am getting better. A little anyway. I am trying anyway.

Today was a pretty good day despite the sickness. The weather was as beautiful of a spring day as you could ever ask for. It was the kind of weather that people in LA can't appreciate. Not having to live through a nasty winter, you never quite appreciate the beauty of spring when it decends upon you in full color. Today was glorious. I would much rather have been off having a lovely picnic somewhere than working.

I am trying to learn a lesson right now about letting go. Not because I want to let go of anything, but because I need to let the outcome of things in my life go and let the Universe do what it does best for you. My heart never wants to let go of things it thinks it must have to live. But my head is talking right now and it says that you must let go as you have no real power over the out come of things, people or situations anyway.

Amazingly in the letting go process that I have been attempting, I find a sense of peace like I have not known before whilst in the middle of a quandry in life.

Letting go of the outcome. Trying to not manipulate things. Trying to just let something higher and more powerful than I actually do it's thang and know in my heart that only that which is the ultimate best and good for everyone will be the outcome.

I want you to know that that is mighty hard, trusting like that. Letting it all go like that. Fucking difficult indeed. Letting go and knowing that the highest good will be the outcome in the end. Wrapping your head around that is not easy one little bit. Especially when it involves your very core heart. Not an easy task.

That is all I need to write tonight. I am done and off to attempt to sleep.

 

Ciao baby.