I honestly do not want to write today. But I am making myself do it anyway.

I had a weird day out there in the real world trying not to smoke and trying to actually accomplish something monetarily. I kind of got weirded out there for a while... literally was losing my grasp on reality for a short bit. Thankfully Alec was on the ball, he pulled me back time and time again to reality.

So I bought the most disgusting brand of cigarettes I could find just a little bit ago. So far I have watched 3 of them burn away and boy howdy they are enough to make a hard core smoker quit. I am sucking down Nicotrol Inhaler (even as we speak). That seems to take the urges away for me.  I think I need to figure out how much of this shit I need to hit on at any given moment to see what is being effective and what is not.

Alec praised me a lot today. Amazing, praise works well with me. Keep up the praising thing boy, it works.

Ok, I am dead tired now. I am off to bed...

Ciao baby...