Really bad hair day

 Personal Daily Horoscope of Saturday, 28 January 2006
for J, born 21 May 1954  

Facing the depths

Valid during many months: This is one of the most unpleasant influences of all, requiring a strong and courageous willingness to change in order to gain any personal benefit from experiences which might, at first, seem senseless and painful. You will repeatedly feel uneasy in unexpected situations in which you felt you had already overcome any problems. This will affect many areas of your life, but particularly the relationship with your partner. If you don't happen to be in a stable relationship at this time then your close friendships will be affected. This influence will also strongly influence your relationships with father-figures, superiors and any other kinds of authority - whether spiritual, religious or ideological.

Any form of therapy will now make you aware of your vulnerabilities. Confronting the darker side of the psyche can be a devastating experience that can uncover abysses within us which we never knew existed. Despite everything, try resisting the temptation to withdraw in order to avoid such experiences. This is not the time to be proud or strong. Pause to reflect, and try talking things over with someone - you will be amazed at the amount of sympathy and understanding you encounter. Accept any offers of help - you may discover that this is not so unpleasant after all. Your current experiences will make you aware of the fallability of human nature, thus helping you to be more tolerant with yourself.

 

This is my horoscope for today. It sucks. This started yesterday actually. It wasn't a happy day yesterday. Which interestingly enough, I didn't bother to post anything about how painful yesterday was for me. In fact, I attempted to actually interact with people last night so that I wouldn't go into myself and hide away. I went into a chatroom and hung out there not really talking much. It was f4Fdungeon on AOHell. I hadn't been in there is like forever. My guess would be at least 8 months or more. And I think the last time I was in there it was because some one dragged me in there unwillingly.

What I wanted to post last night but didn't was this:

Barrell of a Gun

Do you mean this horny creep
Set upon weary feet
Who looks in need of sleep
That doesn’t come
This twisted, tortured mess
This bed of sinfulness
Who’s longing for some rest
And feeling numb

What do you expect of me
What is it you want?
Whatever you’ve planned for me
I’m not the one

A vicious appetite
Visits me each night
And won’t be satisfied
Won’t be denied
An unbearable pain
A beating in my brain
That leaves the mark of cain
Right here inside

What am I supposed to do?
When everything that I’ve done
Is leading me to conclude
I’m not the one

Whatever I’ve done
I’ve been staring down the barrel of a gun

Is there something you need from me?
Are you having your fun?
I never agreed to be
Your holy one

Whatever I’ve done
I’ve been staring down the barrel of a gun

I think this is one of the only songs Dave Gahn actually wrote. I know I am probably wrong, but you would have to ask Sue for that info as I am not up on everything Dave has ever done in his career. I think he wrote this not long after his suicide attempt.

Ok, that's enough for now. I think I should actually be out there getting something done for the day.  

Ciao