I always saw myself as a coward. Always afraid of life, fearful to try new things, to venture beyond that which was within my comfort zone. Then I began to look at my life through the eyes of someone else. Like the theater critic, clinically eyeing a long and drawn out drama. From that perspective, my life has been anything but safe, or cowardly. 

When I consider all that I survived from childhood onward, it took a certain internal courage to go on and choose life despite the odds against me.  

Very little of life has ever been in my comfort zone. Most of it has been spent entirely outside of the box, living life on the razor's edge in many ways. I look back at life so far and think that I sure as hell have done a lot of shit that most people never experience.

My old life slogan was: I'll try anything once, if I like it I'll do it again, if I don't, I won't. My newest slogan: Been there, done that, got the tee shirt.

There isn't a whole lot that I wanted to do that I haven't done. I haven't written a symphony, I really wanted to do that at least once. There are a few sexual things I would have liked to have attempted at least once before I died. The symphony has a better chance of being written than me getting the latter accomplished. I also wanted to learn to sculpt in bronze.  I sincerely am not sure how I am going to pull that one off either. But I think on it occassionally.

Not a coward. Nope. An explorer in many ways. Pushing the envelope, living outside the box.