I have been thinking (despite what little time I have had to think to myself) about grief and feelings of separation only being an in body human experience. I have been remembering the story of BB and AA from Robert A. Monroe's Far Journeys, his second book about his travels out of body.

After several years of out of body exploration, Robert Monroe followed a signal that took him to the outer edges of our earth layers. There he met BB who was a little soul being waiting for his best friend who had gone down to earth to experience being human. BB was not human and had never been human. He called himself a curl because I guess that is what he looked like in the spirit form he was in. BB was very sad and depressed waiting for his companion to return. Mr. Monroe spent a great deal of time with BB over a period of several OOBEs. He learned all about BB and AA and how BB had come to earth and why he was still there after what in human terms was several thousands years.

Basically what it comes down to is that BB was grieving the loss of his beloved companion AA. He could not find AA and had waited faithfully for his return, which never happened. AA had become embroiled in being a human and just kept going back for more punishment over and over again. I can relate to that one.

So I thought about this whole experience that Robert Monroe had with BB and it occurred to me that BB was not human nor had he ever had a physical body of any sort. He could not even fathom what being human was like, and yet, he grieved his lost friend AA. He grieved the lost companionship, the love and  communion he had with AA. When Mr. Monroe found BB from that followed signal, BB was withdrawn and in a severe grieving and depressed state. A very human experience.

Since I personally have never met a non-human entity during an OOBE, I am going to have to go with what Robert Monroe reported in his experiences with during his own OOBEs with non-human entities. Mr. Monroe was not at all concerned that BB had emotions. He never remarked on the fact that a non-human had emotions. And in fact, until I started to think on this subject of things that are purely human conditions, I never thought much on the fact that BB had emotions such as love and grief.

So I am thinking that grief is not a purely human in body condition. If someone who had never had a human incarnation is capable of grief, love, anger, then these emotions are not purely in body human. We probably experience them in a slightly different in body way that a non-human or disincarnate spirit does, but apparently they as we, are capable of such emotions.

Now I will say this about BB, he did not know about nor had he ever experienced being stuck in a body nor had he experienced death of the human body and being the ones left behind, stuck in an in body experience that doesn't allow for you to communicate with a non-incarnate spirit. He hadn't experienced being separated from the ones you are bonded to in love. He had never experienced separation. Separation is something that we in incarnate human form experience on a regular basis. So we had one up on him there. He was experiencing separation for the first time in his existence. I am not saying BB was a lessor evolved being, but he had what I would label infantile separation issues.

Like I know that one day I will once again see and know the beings I have loved in this lifetime. I certainly am not grieving the loss of beings I once knew and had deep communion with in past lives. Many of them I have known again in this incarnation. Many of them I will know again and again. BB didn't have that knowledge and so he grieved.

I have that knowledge and still I grieve. I miss the communion I had with those I was and am deeply bonded to on a spirit level. I miss seeing them and communicating with them, sharing with them on that core level in this body in this lifetime, right this very moment. I want that communion with them right now. Always, never to lose it or feel the sting of being separated because I am unable to commune with them because of my in body human experience blockages which keep me from sharing and touching their being.

I spend my time attempting to free myself of these blocks that keep me from going where I want to go and communicating with whomever I wish to communicate with. I meditate a lot. Lately I have not had much success meditating because, as I have stated before, grief is heavy and it weighs you down emotionally. It's hard to get past a certain point in meditation when you have such a weight on your emotions.

I think what I need is my spirit lifted by unconditional love. The experience of unconditional love brings this intense joy to your being. That is what I need now. Joy, not sorrow. I know something that would bring me great joy. In fact, I know several things that would bring me great joy right now. But it would take basically a miracle to receive that joy at the moment.

So I am seeking in my own way a way to bring joy to me as best I can. I need the heaviness of grief lifted off of me to get there fully. So I work on little increments of things to help bring me the joy my spirit needs now. It's slow going. I am stubborn and very hard headed in many ways. It's hard for me to let go of certain things that are not helpful to my evolution. Soon the new moon is coming. I am looking for a cathartic change in me, in my life. Wish me luck, I, like you, am on a journey. I wish you great luck too.

Ciao