Today, Sue started spotting, passed clots and had cramping for several hours. She is beyond the point of believing there is still an unborn child within her. My heart wants to wrap its self around her now and tenderly calm the pain that grows inside her. I don't know how to be there for her, she has gone inside in her anguish and can let no one in right now. And I understand and so I do not push.

I do not know for certain that there is still a child growing within her womb. I cannot tell her emphatically that the baby is still there. I can only trust my guides and hope that I am not being led astray by their advice. They say the baby is still there. I am holding on to that until medical science tells me other wise.  I am holding on to the unborn infant and the dream of her coming to be with us all.

It is all I can do now. Hope, listen harder and without ego to my guides. Ask for assurance that this was not what Sue believes it to be.

I love Sue, as one loves your own being. She is my family through thick and thin. My heart is heavy for her now. Because I cannot reassure her. I cannot make this experience go away and only be a minor thing that happened early in the pregnancy. Just a big scare as we walk through the mine field of these first few months.  That is what I would like to be able to reassure her with.

I so want this child, for her, for all of us. This child that has been so longed for, so anticipated for so long now. Sue doesn't just want this child, her spirit needs it, like it needs the air to live. And I am helpless now to give it to her. And so I wait, as she does, as this whole family does. Wait for the answer, for the truth.

Universal God Love, let this child come to us, let it be born whole and healthy. Give us this promised daughter. My spirit cries out for this and so I ask utterly with all of my being, bless and grow this being within her womb. Bring her to us whole and healthy.  Bring her in to this family that already loves her, whole and healthy.

So mote it be.

I love you Sue, unconditionally, forever.