So the moon is waning now. This is a good and a bad thing. It's good in that I can banish away shit I don't want crawling around in my life and it's bad because I can't draw things to me that I want or need. Like in the case of money. I can refuse poverty and the lack of money right now. It's sort of like doing reverse psychology in a way. I can clean up my mind and spirit of negative energies, allowing for the space for good energy when the new moon comes in a week or so.
For whatever reasons (it's almost spring, my bio-clock is winding down rapidly, whatever) I have this real desire and energy to do some really positive changes in my life right now. They are all very personal changes, things that effect me mostly, but in the long run, they will effect those around me too. Being the co-dependant creature that I am, I have to be careful that I am always doing something for me and not because someone wants me to do it for them. When I do things for me, it tends to work. When I do things because someone is forcing me to do it for their sake, I will almost always fail.
I am almost 50, I will be by May 21st. I have this desire to give myself a few gifts. I want more than anything to give myself good health, so that is something I am working on even as we speak.
There is more. So much more that I have never had the time to devote energy to, but somehow I want to do them before I leave this plane of existance this time. It's like my heart cries out for these things. Things I have wanted to do all my life, but trying to survive and raise children has always sapped that needed energy and time away from me. Survival + children + relationships= no time or energy for dreams to be fulfilled. Somehow I am going to figure out a way around all this stuff that saps my time and energy. That is one of the things I will ask for on the new moon. That and an Extreme Makeover <grin>.
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